I’m going to wake up. They weren’t serious when they said that they were letting us go. What did I do wrong to not be considered as someone to be kept on? Was it how emotional I got during escalation calls? Was it how much I complained on occasion? I wish I knew the answer. I wish I knew their logic and reasoning. But I won’t. And I never will.
On Friday, January 18th I got laid off from my job. I have never been laid off (or fired for that matter) before. It’s an odd feeling. Being told your getting laid off because your position is redundant. It’s not enough that I was a part of the original 40-50 of the office that helped get it to where it grew exponentially. However, when they chose the 40 some odd people to keep, I was not one of them. Sure, don’t get me wrong, I’m happy for those that got to keep their job. But I would be lying if I said I wasn’t just a little bit jealous or bitter.
Thankfully I am not in as bad of a position as some of my colleagues. Geoff and I have a savings with enough to cover us until we move (if we move) for residency. I’m blessed and grateful we have planned for the unexpected. We’re going to be budgeting now more than ever. For some of my colleagues, my heart hurts. All of us have bills, some have kids, one just bought a house. How they’re going to manage, I’m not sure. I wish they could have been saved.
I’m not sure what I will do with my time now. I’ve got two months till Match day and 5 months till graduation/moving day. Chances are is I will fill my time with working out, maintaining my home, finding a hobby, taking some free online classes, and relaxing. God only knows my stress levels were through the roof with my job. I’m also choosing to try and be positive about this situation. Because I am a firm believer in that everything happens for a reason. This is just one door that closed in my chapter of life. Now, it’s time to find the next one.
Xoxo
Navigating Life as a Doctor's Wife 